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 "What Mary Needs"
 
 by DG
 It starts, as usual, with a feeling of free-fall.
 Exhilarating and terrifying, plunging and accelerating toward
 a mysterious landscape below.  Then, with no apparent change
 in motion, she realizes she is actually flying, traveling
 parallel to the ground.  At first there is joy and a giddy
 feeling of relief, then there is a tinge of dread, which
 starts in her gut and grows and spreads through her limbs as
 the landscape darkens and the flight becomes a journey with
 an unpleasant destination.  Then the feeling of motion stops,
 and the fear is joined with sexual longing, and her body
 starts to respond.  The sequence of emotions, experienced so
 many times now, remains new and fresh - such is the strange
 power of the dreaming mind.
 
 She feels lost and alone, as if she is a thousand miles
 from home.  She feels helpless and stupid and unskilled.
 And she aches with desire.
 
 He woke from a deep, dreamless sleep when she lashed out
 with her arm and hit him in the back.  No longer startled or
 confused when this happened, he calmly reached up into the
 darkness and switched on the reading light, flooding the bed
 with a warm, yellow glow.  Three a.m.  She was tangled in the
 bedcovers, the blue top sheet twisted around her torso,
 pinning one arm beneath her.  She was shaking her head slowly
 back and forth, saying "No, don't leave me here" over and
 over again in a pitiful little-girl voice.
 
 "Wake up, honey.  Bad dream."  He squeezed her shoulder
 firmly, and she slowly relaxed, the tension draining visibly
 from her face.  Then her eyes opened and she gave him a
 questioning look.
 
 "What...?  Oh.  Damn.  What was I doing?"
 
 "Moaning and thrashing, as usual.  What do you
 remember?"
 
 She thought about it, rubbing the sleep out of her eyes,
 and finally shook her head.
 
 "Nothing new.  Falling, flying, scared, horny.  Same
 shit, different night."
 
 "Mary, this has to stop.  Maybe you should see a
 doctor."
 
 "I'm seeing Dr. Lundquist tomorrow.  Today."
 
 "I mean a medical doctor.  Maybe there's a physical
 cause."
 
 "Dr. Lundquist says there isn't."
 
 Fuck Dr. Lundquist.  "How about what we talked about
 earlier?"
 
 "Oh Joe, I don't know...I'll ask Dr. Lundquist."
 
 Great.  "Are you horny now?"
 
 "No, I'm all right," she lied.  She slipped out of bed
 and padded into the bathroom.  When she came back he was
 asleep.  She straightened the sheets and climbed back into
 bed.  Her hand drifted automatically down her stomach, under
 the waistband of her shorts, through the soft thatch of hair
 to her moist, slippery sex.  Listening to her husband's slow,
 even breathing, she quickly brought herself to a quiet but
 satisfying climax.  Only then did she shut off the light.
 
 +++++
 
 Dr. Lundquist was, as usual, reassuring, patient, and
 unhelpful.  Truthfully, he was mystified by the pretty, well-
 adjusted  woman and her strange sexual nightmares.
 
 "Have you been able to recall any specifics?  People,
 places...objects, even?"
 
 Mary shook her head, feeling guilty, like she wasn't
 pulling her weight.  "No.  I have a feeling like I'm waiting
 for someone.  Like I was taken to a far off place to see
 someone."
 
 "But they never show up?"
 
 "I guess not.  Not yet."
 
 He made a note on his pad, like this was significant.
 There was a short silence, and she gathered her courage.
 "Can I ask you a few questions?"
 
 "Of course."
 
 "Why would I be...sexually aroused... at the same time
 that I'm feeling lost and confused?"
 
 Lundquist made another note on his pad and she felt a
 flash of irritation.
 
 "There are several possible reasons.  It could indicate
 a problem in your relationship with your husband, for
 instance."
 
 "My marriage is fine.  At least it was before these damn
 dreams started."  They had been through this many times, and
 she had an urge to shake things up.  "Do you think I could
 have been abused as a child?"
 
 If the question surprised Lundquist, he didn't show it.
 "Unlikely.  The fact that you become sexually aroused
 indicates against it."
 
 She took a deep breath and said "My husband... What
 would happen if I was to, uh, have sex while dreaming?  If I
 was to have an orgasm, maybe it would bring some sort of
 closure...?"  Her voice was steady, but her cheeks were
 slightly flushed.
 
 The   in the white coat shook his head.  "That
 could be dangerous and disruptive.  If you were to wake up in
 the middle of a sexual experience, it could be very
 disorienting."
 
 "Like waking a sleepwalker?"
 
 "Yes."
 
 "But what's the worst that could happen?"
 
 Lundquist shrugged.  "I don't think it will help.  It
 would confuse the issue of where the dreams are coming from."
 
 "I don't give a shit where they are coming from," she
 thought.  Just make them go away.
 
 "OK," she said. "It was just an idea."
 
 Back at work, sitting at her neatly organized desk, she
 couldn't concentrate on her files.  She watched her coworkers
 scurrying around, concerned looks on their faces, and
 wondered what it all meant.  Why it had once seemed so
 important.  Finally she took a calendar out of her bottom
 drawer and placed in on the glass writing surface in front of
 her.  There were no events or appointments written into it,
 just small cryptic notations and numbers in the corners of
 some of the days.  She studied it for a while, made a few
 entries, and then put it away.
 
 +++++
 
 That night, after dinner, she watched Joe as he did the
 dishes.  His hands, encased in yellow rubber gloves, moved
 methodically under the stream of hot water, steadily filling
 the drainer with dripping plates and gleaming glasses.  He
 had a blank, faraway expression on his face, and she wondered
 what he was thinking about.  A few years ago she would have
 asked.  Something to do with his research, probably:  Joe was
 a Ph.D. student, mired in a research project that never
 seemed to make any progress.
 
 She moved behind him, slipping her arms around his
 waist and pressing her  into his back.  It was one of
 their standard marital cuddles, and he turned his head and
 half-smiled.
 
 "How was the appointment?"
 
 She shrugged.  "I don't think we're getting anywhere.
 Honey...?"
 
 "Yes?"
 
 "I've been thinking about your idea.  Still want to do
 it?"
 
 He grinned.  "Of course.  What did Lundquist say?"
 
 "I don't know.  He was sort of neutral.  I can never pin
 him down on anything.  But I don't see what it could hurt."
 
 He turned around in her arms, and gave her a kiss.
 "Good.  Now I can't wait for bedtime."
 
 She felt the bulge in the front of his sweatpants, and
 it dawned on her that this was a turn-on for Joe.  She had
 sort of idly assumed that rubbing her off in her sleep would
 be about as exciting as washing dishes.
 
 "I see you like the idea of having sex with an
 unconscious woman," she said lightly, rubbing her stomach
 against his erection.
 
 "Absolutely.  I was thinking I could invite some friends
 over, let them join in."  He slid his hands down over her ass
 and squeezed.
 
 "Hah.  Are you going to actually have sex with me?  I
 thought you would just rub me."  They rarely talked openly
 about sex like this, and she found it arousing.  Impulsively,
 she slid her hand down into his sweatpants.  His cock was
 bent awkwardly against his leg, and she gently released it.
 
 "I was going to play it by ear.  See what happens, see
 whether it looks like I'm waking you up.  You don't want me
 to?  Hey, that feels good."
 
 "No, that's all right...you might as well enjoy
 yourself."  She was gripping his shaft now, pushing her fist
 up and down a few inches.  He slid his hands up the front of
 her  and closed them around her small breasts, and she
 gasped with surprise.
 
 "What the...?  Oh, you still have the gloves on!  That
 feels so weird."
 
 He lifted her t-shirt over her head, and they both
 laughed at the sight of the bright yellow gloves against her
 white skin.  The ends of the fingers had ridges to improve
 the grip, and they provided an almost painful stimulation to
 her nipples.
 
 "Like fooling around with a  character," she
 giggled.  She thought about going into the bedroom and having
 sex, initiating the predictable sequence of events:
 foreplay, intercourse, hot shower.
 
 "Maybe I better take care of you now, while I'm awake."
 She pushed his sweatpants and underwear down and dropped to
 her knees.  She wouldn't admit it to her husband, but she
 found the position of being on her knees  cock to be
 strangely sexy.  It was every man's fantasy, wasn't it -
 being orally serviced by a subservient woman.
 
 Joe anxiously pushed his cock at her, but she playfully
 closed her mouth and just tantalized him with little strokes
 of her tongue, meticulously coating his cock with a
 glistening layer of saliva.  Then she made an O with her lips
 and started fucking him with her mouth, and he groaned in
 appreciation and started thrusting into her, seeking more and
 more, pressing the swollen head against the back of her
 throat.
 
 "Oh babe, that's so good..."
 
 Her head was suddenly gripped in a firm, rubbery vise as
 he held her with both hands and spastically rammed in and out
 of her mouth.  A musky taste on the back of her tongue, and
 then her mouth filled with the sticky, choking liquid.
 
 He pulled her to her feet, and wiped his semen off her
 chin with an apologetic smile.  "Did I get too carried away?
 I'm sorry..."
 
 "No...that's all right."
 
 +++++
 
 He didn't think he would be able to sleep with the tight
 ball of sexual anticipation squirming in his stomach, but
 when she began crying out he had finally drifted into an
 uneasy, light slumber, from which he woke instantly.  His
 excitement returned in a rush as he cautiously spoke her
 name, and his painfully stiff erection rubbed against the
 sheet as he turned toward her.  She was babbling to herself,
 a flow of pleading nonsense syllables occasionally
 interrupted by a clear word like "water" or "home."
 
 He reached over and slid her nightshirt up to her
 stomach.  When he put his hand on her warm thigh she spread
 her legs and shifted her hips, giving him access.  He was
 surprised by how hot and slippery she was - "She never gets
 this way for me" was the uncharitable thought that came to
 mind.  He dipped his finger into her, coating it with her
 juice, and began gently frigging her, using the familiar
 rhythm and accustomed pressure.
 
 She responded at first, taking deep breaths and moving
 with him, and he wondered if she would wake before she
 climaxed.  But then her response changed, and he could sense
 that she was no longer on track for an orgasm.  Her hips
 twisted in an unfamiliar pattern, and he had the sudden odd
 feeling that it wasn't his  any more, but a stranger in
 his bed.
 
 He quickly stripped off his  and boxer shorts, and
 then carefully positioned himself over her, supporting
 himself on his elbows.  He prodded at her cautiously with his
 rigid cock, and then sunk into her with a glorious plunge.
 She froze for an instant, and said "yes", and then she began
 to jerk and twitch underneath him, still lost in her
 dreamworld.  He thrust into her slowly, trying to match her
 pace, but she wasn't cooperating, and he eventually found it
 best to remain still, letting her seemingly random motions
 create the coitus.
 
 She was all alone, as usual, and confused, but something
 was different.  Someone was approaching, someone she had
 never met, but whom she had always loved.  Someone beautiful.
 The joy inside her was too much to be contained and she found
 herself writhing and straining, longing for release.
 
 "Where are you?" she moaned.
 
 "Right here, babe.  Right here."
 
 The dream faded away and Joe's face appeared directly
 above hers, like an angel sent from God.
 
 She wrapped her legs around his waist and said "Make
 love to me."
 
 "What does it look like I'm doing?" he laughed.  They
 quickly found their rhythm, a line of communication between
 them, and she felt a clean, powerful orgasm build inside her
 and then wash through her body.
 
 When she recovered he was lying next to her, and she
 realized he had come at the same time as her.
 
 "Good for you?" he asked, seriously.
 
 "Wonderful for me.  Joe..."
 
 "What?"
 
 "I think that was it.  I think we finally did it.  My
 dream..."
 
 "What are you talking about, babe?"  His voice was soft
 and sleepy.
 
 "We're going to have a baby, Joe."  As she spoke the
 words, she sensed their inherent truth, and the joy she had
 experienced in her dream returned.
 
 "Come on, you know you can't tell if you're pregnant
 right after.  You of all people should know that."  He sat
 up, a concerned look on his face.  "I thought we had come to
 terms with the fact...I don't want you to get your hopes up,
 babe."
 
 "I don't know how...it's weird, but somehow I can tell."
 She swung her legs off the bed and stood up to go into the
 bathroom.  Her womb felt warm, glowing, alive.  "Just wait
 and see."
 The End, "What Mary Needs"
 
 ©1998 by DG (dionysian1@hotmail.com)
 
 Author's note:  This  was a bit of a departure for me,
 written when I was in a strange, contemplative mood.  I'm
 curious to know what people think of it - I'm not
 sure what I think of it myself.
 
 Thanks to Baird Allen, I have a nice web page with all my
 stories on it.  Please drop by and check it out some time:
 http://baird.pair.com/dg.htm
 
 -DG
 
 
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